I grew up in a Christian household that gave me a firm foundation in my love for our heavenly Father. But that foundation gave me no power and as I grew older, I became frustrated and uninterested because I saw no change in my life. I always felt I was missing something.

I have lived a miserable Christian life for many years. I was taught I had to do good to make it to heaven and was never taught about grace. The harder I tried, the more I failed. I have been married and divorced three times. I’ve felt embarrassed and felt like a failure.

I was born into a Christian family where we had daily prayers and Bible study. Since childhood, I was taught to read and memorize the Scriptures religiously. Growing up, I was an introvert and didn’t have many friends. As a result, I didn’t have anyone to share my happiness or sadness with. I also didn’t share my distresses with my parents as I didn’t want to trouble them or be judged by them.

In the past five years, I had sent various prayer requests to Joseph Prince Ministries for my 27-year-old son, who was deep in an addiction to crystal meth. He had found it difficult to accept his father’s death and had gone into a downward spiral, with the drug taking control of his life and causing him to do some terrible things.

Last year was a tough year for me and my family. My husband of seven years became angry with me and we started fighting. The fighting got worse and more frequent until we were fighting every day. I could see him pulling away from me and pushing our sons away.