About a year ago, I was diagnosed with psychosis (a mental condition characterized by a disconnection from reality) at the age of 29. It was one of the toughest times as I was hospitalised and unable to return home to my family.

I grew up in a Christian household that gave me a firm foundation in my love for our heavenly Father. But that foundation gave me no power and as I grew older, I became frustrated and uninterested because I saw no change in my life. I always felt I was missing something.

I have lived a miserable Christian life for many years. I was taught I had to do good to make it to heaven and was never taught about grace. The harder I tried, the more I failed. I have been married and divorced three times. I’ve felt embarrassed and felt like a failure.

I was born into a Christian family where we had daily prayers and Bible study. Since childhood, I was taught to read and memorize the Scriptures religiously. Growing up, I was an introvert and didn’t have many friends. As a result, I didn’t have anyone to share my happiness or sadness with. I also didn’t share my distresses with my parents as I didn’t want to trouble them or be judged by them.

In the past five years, I had sent various prayer requests to Joseph Prince Ministries for my 27-year-old son, who was deep in an addiction to crystal meth. He had found it difficult to accept his father’s death and had gone into a downward spiral, with the drug taking control of his life and causing him to do some terrible things.