I have lived a miserable Christian life for many years. I was taught I had to do good to make it to heaven and was never taught about grace. The harder I tried, the more I failed. I have been married and divorced three times. I’ve felt embarrassed and felt like a failure.

I was born into a Christian family where we had daily prayers and Bible study. Since childhood, I was taught to read and memorize the Scriptures religiously. Growing up, I was an introvert and didn’t have many friends. As a result, I didn’t have anyone to share my happiness or sadness with. I also didn’t share my distresses with my parents as I didn’t want to trouble them or be judged by them.

Last year was a tough year for me and my family. My husband of seven years became angry with me and we started fighting. The fighting got worse and more frequent until we were fighting every day. I could see him pulling away from me and pushing our sons away.

Late last year, I was diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer. I went through the darkest time in my life filled with fear and was depressed. I blamed myself for not going to get checked by the doctor sooner.

I believed wrong and therefore lived wrong for a long time. I am forty years old at this point of writing and only came across Jesus’ truth and grace two years ago through Pastor Prince.